Dealing With It: You, Me & Anxiety

dealing with anxiety

When I had all of my bulimia and depression issues, anxiety was just an add on to that. The three things made a full-circle of constant heart flutters and cold sweats. When I battled my issues and came out the other side I wasn’t naive, I knew that I’d alway be tainted with little self-doubts, but as a MUCH stronger and confident person, with supportive people around me, I never feel too lost and I always know the feelings will pass, because I will actively make changes to my life to see that it passes.

The reason I’m writing this post is because yesterday was one of those days when dealing with anxiety got me hard. I constantly felt on edge or nearing tears and was struggling to smile, which for anyone who knows me, that’s quite out of character – I love showing my pearly whites! 😉 There will always be challenges in our life that get us down and sometimes rather than fight how you’re feeling, I find it’s good to just accept the down days as exactly that… one day that will pass by.

Yesterday evening I went to a pretty intense Ashtanga class which helped let my mind escape the worries. Other times I might just talk to Rob about how I’m feeling, meditate or write it down, like I am now. Getting it out always helps. Even a warm mug of green tea and a little hang upside down can really help me shake it out. Please note that it’s probably best not to do the green tea and upside-down moves at the same time!

If you struggle with similar issues I just want you to know that you’re not alone. More people than you know have days like us, but some chose to keep it to themselves.

I know it’s not easy, but if we share our thoughts and feelings, maybe it can be just a little more bearable.

Love, Cat x



  1. Alice
    October 18, 2016 / 12:53 pm

    Hi Cat

    I have been going through a really horrible bout of vertigo for the last five weeks which I think has been brought on by stress and anxiety. I have had it before but not as bad as this. It has certainly been made worse by me getting very panicky that it will never go. I had some small relief from it the other day when I did your slow flow tutorial. It is really beautiful and you move so gracefully and calm-inducingly (don’t think that’s a word).

    Anyway, thank you and thank you for this post on anxiety. It does help knowing that I am not alone.

    Alice xx

  2. April 14, 2016 / 5:46 pm

    Hi Cat,

    I know you said on your Instagram that you weren’t sure whether it would be a good idea to share this post, but I’m glad you did! Anxiety hits everyone at some point (I know I’m more prone to it at the moment due to upcoming exams!) and like you said, it’s nice to know you’re not alone.

    Lauren x

    • cmeffan
      April 14, 2016 / 6:42 pm

      Thank you Lauren. I hope you’re coping ok – I’m sure you’ll ace your exams! Sending love and light your way xxx

  3. April 13, 2016 / 1:48 pm

    Cat, I caught this when you mentioned it on Instagram today. I’ve not seen much of you the last few years so I obviously wasn’t aware that like myself you’d been going through some anxiety.
    To speak about my own experiences for a moment, I’ve gone through both anxiety (minor) and depression (very heavy). The self doubt that clouds your mind and every decision is a thing that people often can’t understand that we can just “get over”. I won’t go into full details about my history of it but suffice to say I’ve finally started to come through that tunnel into a place when I might be able to recover fully. Anxiety especially is a difficult thing for people to grasp because it’s not just “unnecessary worrying” as some might think but this crippling fear of well, everything, in a way that “anxiety” just doesn’t even begin to describe it.
    I’m glad you feel able to talk openly about it now and there’s a part of me that feels more able to open up about it these days than I have in the past. Thanks.

    • cmeffan
      April 14, 2016 / 9:38 am

      Hey Petros,
      So lovely to hear from you and thank you for such an honest and open comment. So glad to hear that you’re coming out the other side, it will get so much better from here, when we can just look at the bad days as moments passing by. I’m a million miles away from where I once was, but I think once you’ve been tainted with it, there will always be times when it’s tough.
      Sending many good vibes and happiness to you.
      Keep talking about it. It’s good to talk :) x

  4. April 13, 2016 / 10:52 am

    I have struggled with depression and anxiety for a number of years now, and at a particularly bad point I even had a mental breakdown at work that led to me being signed off for a week.

    These days I have things that I do that help me cope much better – but as you said there are always a few moments of self doubt!

    Something that I read recently that has genuinely really helped is the idea of asking yourself whether you can survive the next ten seconds, and then the next. Ten seconds doesn’t seem that much, and it’s such a simple exercise but I definitely feel breaking things down even into such short segments helps me get back ‘in control’. It also helps when out on particularly bad runs when I just want to quit!

    This was a really great post, and I hope you’re having a better day today!

    Tamsin x

    • cmeffan
      April 14, 2016 / 9:41 am

      Hi Tamsin,
      Thank you so much for your comment and for opening up. As much as I hate to hear of people suffering, I think it’s so important that we share our stories, so we all know that we’re in it together. I like the idea of the 10-second question – can totally see how that works. So happy that you’ve found coping mechanisms that work for you and that you’re in a better place. Keep talking about it and keep smiling… sometimes I find that just forcing a smile helps a little.
      Sending you good vibes xxx

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